29-09-2010

i think i very happy now..

many good thing happen on my life..

but..

why i feel some worry..

worry about i don't know that good thing is real or lie

i can't feel that thing is real

i'm so scare i will lost all that i have

please care more a bit to me..

sometime let me so sad..

not will jealous about what i'm doing

what that means><

is it i also not important in your heart?

i think so..

so annoying..

i miss you too much already...

when i can see you?

23-09-2010

still got 7++ hours

my 18 years old birthday will coming soon

before the moment

i think you will celebrate with me

yes

you really go back already

but not to celebrate with me

i have to think when i wake up today

i feel so hopeful

how you will celebrate with me

actually i just want you be my side

thats is a nice gift already

but why the god send the tear for me be my gift?

i hate i'm crying

let me feel so useless

you ask me don't cry

actually when i saw the word u type

my tears fall down already

don't worry about me

i'm not in your heart..

always not!

i'm just a bird in your sky

thats your conclusion..

or i need to say

you always no need me to accumpanny you

just i need u..

that few day i really very happy..

really really..

i will keep all the memory we have in my deep heart..

thats a wonderful memory

i'm not important in your world

the bird want to fly away the sky already

it want to find its sky..

just for its sky

u are always be the sea

not be the bird

i can't walk in your heart

because full seating already

i know your means already

i want buy a big pillow for me to hug in night

i want sleep very well without you

i want live very happy without you

i won'y cry in everyday without you

i won't feel so pain when i see you and your sea

i will eat medicine without you take for me

i will walk myself when my stomach pain

i will hug my pillow when i cold

i will hug my pillow when i feel scare

you want i run out your world

you want i go find a nice man

you want i stay in his side

you want i go out with him

you want i clever

you want i heard the advised by my friend

is it the means is you want i let you go out from my heart?

is it you want i let him stay inside my heart?

is it you want i stay away your world?

if that really you want..

i try my best to do it for you..

you can go back your simple life

you will live very happy without me

you will not be complicated

you really is a nice man

i will learn how to take care myself without you

you know it..

i'm very healthy and strong..

never never sick one

your sea need you very much

my sick will be fine without eat medicine

don't worry

the sick just a small matter

i don't want cry

you don't like i'm cry

i don't want see my tears

i want be strong

i want let you stay away my heart

you want let me stay away your heart

even though your door never open for me

please

don't want let me stay near by your heart..

i will can't control myself

we are best friend always

best friend forever

you are my mr.right

but we meet at the wrong time

everything become wrong already

all become crazy

last quetion

will you feel more happy when you know..

i'm stay his side right now?

i think you will

that time can solve many problem

if like that

i try my best to do it

everything will go back the beginning

everything will be fine

will you say goodbye with me?

goodbye to you..

i will never forget the nice time we have..

i didn't hate you..

really..

i won't cry again

because you don't like i'm crying

i won't let my tears fall down again

because you don't like to saw my tears

but..

why my tears always fall down when i start to miss you..

goodbye..my love =)

18-09-.2010

moody again...

please

leave me alone

even though i'm hate the lonely feel..

may i cry?

i just know i'm really moody...

do you have heard some sound?

how you broke my heart?

i want cry..

where my tears gone??

where the real me gone??

i lost myself..

may i hide in a place..

a place just got me...

and you will missing in my world..

MR.Chong Teck Hing

i miss you so much ><

i'm deep moody now..

when i can see you??

i want borrow your shoulder..

you promise want bring me go watch movie

promise me want bring me go pasar malam

promise me u will send a birthday gift to me a~

don't want be a lier!!

SECRET

just now so sad

you know??

you don't know

what you also don't know

not i want be a night ghost

not i want have a night life

is because i scare u can't find people chat when you want chat

i don't want let you feel so lonely

not i like be a bad girl

not i like go to drink beer

not i like go to clubbing

is because this is just a pleasure with my friend

thats not means i'm bad girl

not i like disturb you when you unhappy

not i like say that stupid thing with you

is because i care about you

just now i know something

i know the final result

hehe

i know what i'll be in your heart

i know

i really know

just feel so relax

this is wishes

not destroy

everything will be ok

I can tell by your eyes that you've probably been crying forever,
And the stars in the sky don't mean nothing to you, they're a mirror.
I don't wanna talk about it, how you broke my heart.
If I stay here just a little bit longer,
If I stay here, won't you listen to my heart, whoa, heart?

If I stand all alone, will the shadow hide the colour of my heart;
Blue for the tears, black for the nights fears.
The star in the sky don't mean nothing to you, they're a mirror.
I don't wanna talk about it, how you broke my heart.
If I stay here just a little bit longer,
If I stay here, won't you listen to my heart, whoa, heart?

I DON'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT

16-09-2010

SHIT IT!!!!

I'm feel so bad mood~

think too much??

today go sing k with susan & joanne

the sad song always sing inside my heart><

I HATE IT!!!

i really know i'm very x100 stupid!!

i'm not ugly girl

even though i'm also not a pretty girl..

what i'm doing now??

what i want now??

how about my 18 years old birthday??

who will celebrate with me??

i hope is you XD

i know that..

is impossible..

haha..

i like a song..

every time sing k i also will sing that..

BUT I DON'T CARE WHAT THEY SAY

I'M IN LOVE WITH YOU

THEY TRY TO PULL ME AWAY

BUT THEY DON'T KNOW THE TRUTH

MY HEART CRIPPLE BY THE VEIN THAT I KEEP ON CLOSING

YOU CUT ME OPEN AND I...

i miss you again><

15-09-2010

unbelievable!!!

yesterday i really really sot jor!!

where my brain gone??!!

why i tell you that thing??

shit lo!!

erm~~

i just can say..

all that i say is rubbish~~

PLEASE!!

forget it!!!

i dins't tell you anything!!

123

FORGET!!!

that just a meaningless topic!!

you ask me what the respond i want..

i didn't tell u..

because all i want you can't give me~

so forget what i say XD

trust me!!

yesterday i sot jor!!

FORGET!!!

FORGET!!!

FORGET!!!

something is true ^^

the start what i say~

hahaha~

i think these all will become nothing~~

cheer up =)

please><

13-09-2010

I'm stay at JB now><

suddenly i feel i'm stay near with you..

you will always call mi 38 when you free~~

actually what are u thinking about?

i'm just your sister or what?

you treat me so good~

i say i want watch the resident evil with you..

your friend also have date you watch together~~

but you reject them><

in that moment..

u touch my heart..

but in your heart..

what i'll be??

on other guy..

what i'll be in his heart too??

i don't know..

who am i?

am i live in your heart right now?

i don't know what i think~

i know we are impossible..

but i can't control myself stay beside of you..

i'm very stupid..

right?

do you think too??

just now i have read something..

暧昧是，明白人生有太多的无奈，现实有太多的限制。你知道没有可能，但又舍不得放手。

暧昧是，你很想多走一步，但又怕会吓怕了他。你会很小心流露自己的感情。

暧昧是，两个人没有承诺过什么。但虽然如此，你愿意付出的，比有承诺的情侣更多。

没有责任，但你却很渴望去承担，不问回报。

我们暧昧，我们却不属于对方。

is a meaningful paragraph..

i miss you very much..

have you miss me too??

疑惑。。

很疑惑

是不是一个人可以喜欢很多个人

可是爱的却只有一个她？

那被喜欢的人又算什么呢？

我不知道。。

我不知道最近怎么了

朋友说我变了

我真的变了吗？？

还是因为另一些原因？

我真的不知道

我真的那么喜欢你吗？

我还是不知道。。

9-9-2010

那天看了吃人鱼

跟德兴去看～～

超级恶心><

你知道我害怕

我挽着你的手

靠着你肩膀

你却也凑过来我的身边让我靠

干嘛对我那么好==

如果我再次喜欢上你怎么办！！

笨蛋！！

一直找我出去

带我出去玩

我误会了怎么办==

你还要带我去你朋友生日会

去波德申玩

我真的会误会><

白痴！！

得空又找我车大炮==

不管怎样～

我喜欢在一起的感觉

因为不需要掩饰什么

很轻松

很自在

很开心><

5-9-2010

我要崩溃了。。

当所有人都说题目很简单的时候

我在做什么？

睡觉？

无言？

我一点都不会做。。

我真的很没有用

真的

什么都不如人家

在研究去年的数学考题

我很多很多都不会做

他们却都说很简单

我的心凉了

我很努力地想去做好他

可是我真的不会

我适合读书吗？

我是读书的材料吗

唉。。。

真是大便

心情掉到谷底

只有我自己一个人在乎

只有一个

快点醒醒啊～～

不要再有留念

快去睡觉！！

我几天都没有睡到觉了

快累死==

明天·是我不敢想象的明天。。

3-9-2010

超级的累～～

连续几天没有什么睡觉==

直到家里没得上网才有早睡那么一点点==

没得上网

就一直找朋友煲粥

哈哈哈

结果还是不够睡

黑眼圈就快大过我自己的眼睛了！！

OH SHIT!!

早点睡觉啊～～

现在是凌晨3am++

我的build.con还有十分之九没有读！！！

我却在写博客==

怎么办？？

又准备多一百？？

我要怎样跟我爸爸讲==

他会拿什么来砍我？？

大便咯！！

把书拿去煲汤喝会有用吗？

1-9-2010

别问我的考试怎样了

用你的屁股想想

肯定不好!!

80块啊~~

我要怎样存??

还有接下来的科目

我需要存多少钱才够我resit??

不知道~~

上帝眷顾我吧..

你已经让我再次孤单

你也已经把他带走

别把我的学业再拿走~

我输不起

上帝啊~

你几时才会再把另外一个他带来我的身边?

我们结束了

彻彻底底的玩完了

我的人生突然间空白了

白得像一张白纸

就像他从来就没有出现过

他怎么可以这样

随意闯进别人的心里

在随意的搬离

我该恨你吗?

不应该

你没有错

只是我太笨

放肆的去喜欢你

我能把喜欢都收回来多爱自己一点吗?

我觉得我忽略了自己好久

最近有人一直说我肥==

怎么办??!!

减肥啦!!!

李晓莹!!!

振作啊~~

一个人过生日有什么了不起!!

朋友狂晒命有什么了不起!!

我要一个人也可以过得很好!!

一个人而已

怕孤单而已

我可以克服的!!

邱弈阳!!

我没有肥==

我要减5kg!!!