23-09-2010

still got 7++ hours

my 18 years old birthday will coming soon

before the moment

i think you will celebrate with me

yes

you really go back already

but not to celebrate with me

i have to think when i wake up today

i feel so hopeful

how you will celebrate with me

actually i just want you be my side

thats is a nice gift already

but why the god send the tear for me be my gift?

i hate i'm crying

let me feel so useless

you ask me don't cry

actually when i saw the word u type

my tears fall down already

don't worry about me

i'm not in your heart..

always not!

i'm just a bird in your sky

thats your conclusion..

or i need to say

you always no need me to accumpanny you

just i need u..

that few day i really very happy..

really really..

i will keep all the memory we have in my deep heart..

thats a wonderful memory

i'm not important in your world

the bird want to fly away the sky already

it want to find its sky..

just for its sky

u are always be the sea

not be the bird

i can't walk in your heart

because full seating already

i know your means already

i want buy a big pillow for me to hug in night

i want sleep very well without you

i want live very happy without you

i won'y cry in everyday without you

i won't feel so pain when i see you and your sea

i will eat medicine without you take for me

i will walk myself when my stomach pain

i will hug my pillow when i cold

i will hug my pillow when i feel scare

you want i run out your world

you want i go find a nice man

you want i stay in his side

you want i go out with him

you want i clever

you want i heard the advised by my friend

is it the means is you want i let you go out from my heart?

is it you want i let him stay inside my heart?

is it you want i stay away your world?

if that really you want..

i try my best to do it for you..

you can go back your simple life

you will live very happy without me

you will not be complicated

you really is a nice man

i will learn how to take care myself without you

you know it..

i'm very healthy and strong..

never never sick one

your sea need you very much

my sick will be fine without eat medicine

don't worry

the sick just a small matter

i don't want cry

you don't like i'm cry

i don't want see my tears

i want be strong

i want let you stay away my heart

you want let me stay away your heart

even though your door never open for me

please

don't want let me stay near by your heart..

i will can't control myself

we are best friend always

best friend forever

you are my mr.right

but we meet at the wrong time

everything become wrong already

all become crazy

last quetion

will you feel more happy when you know..

i'm stay his side right now?

i think you will

that time can solve many problem

if like that

i try my best to do it

everything will go back the beginning

everything will be fine

will you say goodbye with me?

goodbye to you..

i will never forget the nice time we have..

i didn't hate you..

really..

i won't cry again

because you don't like i'm crying

i won't let my tears fall down again

because you don't like to saw my tears

but..

why my tears always fall down when i start to miss you..

goodbye..my love =)